weird life lately...

Lately, life has been quite different...

as it is, i don't expect my life to be busy...

yet, i've been sleeping at "early" hours for a few days lately...
n waking only at lunchtime...

what a way of life...

in fact, i dislike myself for sleeping so much, being so "pig-gie"...haizz..



there're problems popping up here n there now n then...

sometimes, i consider myself a greedy person, i think...

i wanna be a good guy, a good friend, a good son, a good brother..in short, a wanted & likeable person...

the matter i now face is being a good friend...

i dare say it isn't hard to own friends(as in common friends)...

but when u say pals or chums, u really mean people who are very good friends, people who make u fell comfortable n happy, and in return share yours with them...

yet, sometimes i can't be sure if i can give my buddies this kinda feeling...

i wanna improve, i wanna have many many more buddies...

i want my life colourful with all sorts of friends...



so much crap, n i haven mention the matter..haha



when you happen to have 2 different groups of friends, A & B...

you want to befriend both sides...

but the problem is these 2 sides have problems in between...

both sides have made their own mistakes..

yet, no one is willing is take a step backwards...

i might not understand the whole situation..

but i still believe that it is not only one's fault...

i dare say no one is totally correct...

being someone on top of the wall, how can i choose which side to fall??

being a greedy person, i wanna maintain my friendship with both sides...

yet, when i open my mouth, i believe i might hurt either sides...

i really don't want this to happen...

that's the main reason why i always choose to keep silent...


as some of you may know, i believe i'm a good listener, i'm a good "rubbish-can"...

u can throw all ur feelings into me, n i'll will be there only listening...

i might only say "ah", "oh", "erm".......


i really don't know if this is good thing o not...

sometimes, i really have my own thinking, my own perspectives, my own way of doing things...

yet, i can never find the words to describe, to solidify my thoughts into speech...

very sad indeed, isn't it??




let's hope everything will turn out fine...

i only can hope that this "greedy" wish of mine can be fulfilled...