Lately, life has been quite different...
as it is, i don't expect my life to be busy...
yet, i've been sleeping at "early" hours for a few days lately...
n waking only at lunchtime...
what a way of life...
in fact, i dislike myself for sleeping so much, being so "pig-gie"...haizz..
there're problems popping up here n there now n then...
sometimes, i consider myself a greedy person, i think...
i wanna be a good guy, a good friend, a good son, a good brother..in short, a wanted & likeable person...
the matter i now face is being a good friend...
i dare say it isn't hard to own friends(as in common friends)...
but when u say pals or chums, u really mean people who are very good friends, people who make u fell comfortable n happy, and in return share yours with them...
yet, sometimes i can't be sure if i can give my buddies this kinda feeling...
i wanna improve, i wanna have many many more buddies...
i want my life colourful with all sorts of friends...
so much crap, n i haven mention the matter..haha
when you happen to have 2 different groups of friends, A & B...
you want to befriend both sides...
but the problem is these 2 sides have problems in between...
both sides have made their own mistakes..
yet, no one is willing is take a step backwards...
i might not understand the whole situation..
but i still believe that it is not only one's fault...
i dare say no one is totally correct...
being someone on top of the wall, how can i choose which side to fall??
being a greedy person, i wanna maintain my friendship with both sides...
yet, when i open my mouth, i believe i might hurt either sides...
i really don't want this to happen...
that's the main reason why i always choose to keep silent...
as some of you may know, i believe i'm a good listener, i'm a good "rubbish-can"...
u can throw all ur feelings into me, n i'll will be there only listening...
i might only say "ah", "oh", "erm".......
i really don't know if this is good thing o not...
sometimes, i really have my own thinking, my own perspectives, my own way of doing things...
yet, i can never find the words to describe, to solidify my thoughts into speech...
very sad indeed, isn't it??
let's hope everything will turn out fine...
i only can hope that this "greedy" wish of mine can be fulfilled...
